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God, Give me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to Change the things I can.... and Wisdom to know the difference...

She felt numb... ; Nowhere to go, nobody to talk to.But she could not do a thing to it, as it was her choice and her fate that she's now standing where she is...out of the fire..into the frying pan .. Better life.. : whom was she fooling, herself or her own extension of the persona which was not like her. She regretted her decision a time more, she had built her life on false promises and illusions and now the life once again had stared back to her with its naked truth, wild but spiteful. It all started with a call and the twist of the destiny. She got what she wanted but what laid ahead, the false promises of sensitivity, friendship, to be looked after was more than she could have asked for. But in its own ways, the promise was forfeited over and over again. She was insecure and scared, as she tried to put up a brave front for the world; she knew it was too late for her and it disconcerted her time and again. She wanted to move out of the squirm of the emotional perplexity and ...

Big Time Depression....just around the corner....!!!

I've absolutely nothing original to contribute today...which is becoming more of a habit thesedays...n therefore...for the records...here I am.. neways... nothing much happening in life thesedays...but then again....depends on the way you look at it...work...work..work...taking away most of the time...with little left for any other activity. Lots of things happening around me though. Friend got married...friends getting married..housewarming comming up...I've completed 5 months with my first Organization...n much much more... How fast things change in our lives. It seems like it was yesterday when we used to have those carefree school days when all our concern was to do well in the quarterly tests and annual exams...thoses much awaited evenings...spent playing all sorts of typically kiddish games with friends till dusk...being scolded for coming back late...them came the board exams...then the sudden shift...from a school kid to a college goer...all those gossip sessions that w...

He could hear the crowds screaming "crucify" "crucify"... He could hear the hatred in their voices, These were his chosen people. He loved them, And they were going to crucify him. He was beaten, bleeding and weakened... his heart was broken, But still He walked He could see the crowd as he came from the palace. He knew each of the faces so well. He had created them.He knew every smile, laugh, and shed tear, But now they were contorted with rage and anger...his heart broke, But still He walked. Was he scared? You and I would have been, so his humanness wouldHave mandated that he was. He felt alone. His disciplesHad left, denied, and even betrayed him. He searched the crowd for a loving face and he saw very few. Then he turned his eyes to the only one that mattered And he knew that he would never be alone. He looked back at the crowd, at the people who were spittingAt him, throwing rocks at him and mocking him and he knewThat because of him, they would never be...

I get a funny feeling, it comes from deep inside. I get all mad and angry, wanting to go and hide. My doctor calls it depression, my dad says it's just me. But the thoughts and feelings, no one will ever be able to see. Some say I'm psycho, some say I'm just weird. It's like I'm a different person, and the old me just disappeared. I get really edgy, I want to commit suicide real bad. Then I get a headache, followed by feeling sad. I wish I could get help, I wish it would go away. Maybe if I keep praying real hard, it will some day.... {Another Cut-Copy-Paste!!}

What is Heights of Depresion???...must be when you know ur depresed and it doesnt matter anymore...on the contrary..it gives you a normal, routine-like feeling..!!! Everyday, I make promises to myself with every intention of keeping them...yet i'm made to realise that i've failed miserably..nothing...nothing I do is done correctly...I'll always be the wrong one because I'm a negative thinker...always coming up with problems and limitation...never solutions...never even appreciting them..!!My actions are wrong..my thoughts are wrong...my thought process is wrong...my beliefs are wrong..my choices..likes and dislikes are wrong..practically speaking...opnions no longer matter..!! What is good about me??? Am I suffocated...??? No...I no longer know how I feel and what I feel...stopped thinking..its easier this way... Am I depressed?? No Angry...?? No Motivated..?? Maybe Happy..?? Dont Know To please everyone is impossible...but, what is a person supposed to do when he/she r...