Backstage Entries

I came to you the hour I was in pain Looking for answers, I cried to you in vain. I shared the many skeletons hiding in my heart,I knew then you'd be my friend, I knew it from the start. Troubles ran like rivers, flowing through my life, You picked the pieces up and help me through my strife. When home wasn't home to me no more, You opened up your heart, and opened up the door. We cried into night until the early morn. We solaced each other's pain and shared our many thorns. As time flew, the air grew thick, I saw our friendship fading, and my heart grew sick. The day had arrived,When it was time to say goodbye. Now I sit alone,reminiscing the past I'd blown .

Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies, Do not you hear my heartfelt cries? Below the branches, here about, Do not you sense my fear and doubt? Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams, Do not you hear my woeful screams? Upon the meadows, touched with dew, Do not you see my hearts a'skew? Beneath the thousand twinkling stars, Do not you feel my jagged scars? Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze, For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees. It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies, Accompanied by heartfelt sighs. It's drifting o're the gentle rain, A symbol of my silent pain. It's buried 'neath the meadow fair, Conjoined with all the sorrow there. It's lost among the stars this night, Too far to ease my quiet fright. No gentle winds, seek not my heart, For simply ... it has torn apart.

I've never felt more helpless...Never been more depressed .... Nothing seems to be going right...I'd never realised till date how difficult it is to take personal decisions. I hate myself for procrastinating things like this but I cant seem to help it...guess I'm waiting for something to happen........Someone plz help me... God....are U Listning ....

They say learnings never stop.....but then...the student life does end. The day was as ordinary as any other morning i've seen at NIAM during the past 2 yrs of my stay here. Woke up at 8:30 ( see...i'm trying to reform my habits !!) had my breakfast...came back to my room...and got ready for the Last Class Ever of My Student Life ....it indeed was a weird feeling to realise that we've finally grown past those rosy days of friends frolick and fun...ready to step into the big bad world out there...Not just that...also the realisation that i'd soon be leaving the place i've come to love so much...the people with whom i've spend the past two years doing the expected and the unexpected...made me sad. In the evening, we had our Farewell...could any other day be better suited to mark the end of one chapter and begining of other...It was when I saw everyone on the dance floor I realised how fast time flies...it seems like day befor yesterday when our seniors welcomed in...

Been absent from the world for long enough I guess….Well….Jaundice is BAD!!! Never imagined that I’d be spending the last days of my B’School life eating “ Khichdi and boliled potatoes..!!!”…and that too when our oft - abused mess serves good food….really…ask me! Hmmm...so whats been happening all thesedays...well...was down with jaundice, missed a couple of parties where rest of the guys had loads of fun while I was sitting alone in my room...wondering what to do next..:-( , missed 3 of my exams...got news that i passes in 2 subjected which i was earlier misinformed that i'd flunked...(Whew..!!!) the thought of studying Financial Management....that of handling Fin. Mgt by Prasanna Chandra had started giving me nightmares.. What's more...i got the first reply to my posts....which is what made me Happiest...that people read all the nonsense i put up...thnx dear friend... well...that's pretty much the jist of what is happening in my life thesedays....

Funny how one thing can affect our lives so completely....when its not there....we dont miss it ( not exactly...;-) ...just keep fantacising), but when its there...life's bliss, you are all forgiving, the world is so much better... But when things are Not-So-Good....everything seems to be such a waste, people appear to be insensitive and uncaring, nothing seems to be going right, in short, life does not seem to be worth living..!!Unlike the past few days, my life's beautiful, and my days are sunny....and I t Feels Sooooo Goooddd.......

Yesterday....we celebrated the last of the Birthdays @ our Home-Away-From Home..aka NIAM ... Happy Birthday Chinks.... While we were enjoying ourselves..i remembered the first one...Annie's...that was the time when all of us were new to our lil world at Jaipur...little did we know that this would be the place which would hold so many memories for us, the two years which we've spent Partying till dawn, Skipping breakfasts Sleeping till 12,bunking classes, playing games at CC- be it Roadrash, AoE, Solitaire or Sharko, all the cozy talks we've enjoyed at our Rooms..all the "Preperation" before exams....and off course the cooperation..the list is endless.... And now...before we know...it is time to say gud bye... Wont try to put any senti stuff here....just feeling a little nostalgic( already..!!!;-) ) Hope all of us always hold these special memories close to heart.....Do Well in Life Guys.... God Bless !!!